On ne peut désirer ce qu'on ne connaît pas.

I'm really getting tired of having to experience everything with other people. harsh huh? I believe a large number of people have this same problem and don't realize it. Obviously most of the things people do are direct responses to the words and actions of people around them, but do they realize that their thoughts and emotions are affected just as much? I came upon this realization when watching Braveheart with my cousins. One of them started to cry and then another, who might not have been as affected by the scene before noticing my cousin's reaction, began to cry as well. By the end of it all I was wondering why I wasn't crying. Then it hit me, the way I feel about a lot of things is a product of the thoughts and opinions of people around me. School- most important thing in life. God- also, most important thing in life. People- all of them are untrustworthy. Things like this have evolved out of my parents' view of things and my friends' view of things and their parents' view of things and it's beginning to bother me. I'm ready to go off for a long time and be alone so that I can form my own opinions of life and the world. I want to experience things unhindered and uninfluenced. Life is short, and I refuse to spend it looking through eyes that are not my own.