I feel like I'm ready to be something. In light of recent events, my life seems to be panning out in a myriad of directions, most of which I am satisfied with. Some I am not. I want to do everything, and not be defined by a career, but that's dumb. Though it's backed by rational thinking, to the rest of the world my delimma seems juvenile. And maybe it is. After all, I am just a teenager, without any meaningful ideas to my name. (why am I always so sarcastic in posts? this, I am not sure of) You know what I wish? That everyone dressed up all the time and men wore coats with tails, and women wore nice dresses. Everyone would ride around in horse-drawn carriages and converse about meaningful things along the way. We wouldn't be so blunt. Men could talk to women in much more clever, thought-provoking ways, and women could respond equally as mysteriously. Men would carry flasks, embossed with family crests, or large print initials. We'd carry our initials and our family name like it meant something, and treat people like they meant something. Boys would sneak off with girls late at night, to go swimming in lakes on the outskirts of the town, or kiss them on canoe rides down moonlit rivers in the middle of summer. Kisses would be so special. And during the day, we'd have extravagent games of pirates and navy, using elaborate wooden "spears," donning hats and our fathers' old boots, on ships of bedsheets and lumber. We'd sail far away, to beautiful places. Littered with precious metals, and jewels bigger than we could carry. Our eyes would be restless, always searching the world for new things. We would never have to realize the reality of where we were, even that would be masked by the flasks of men, and the adventures of boys in love with girls, and girls in love with dreamers. I want to be in love. I want to be in love with a girl who won't accept the harshness of the world. Who will overcome it with me, and hand in mine, reprimand the evil in the world. Who will forgive me for who I was, love me for who I am, and support who I want to become. I want to love a girl like that, forever and unconditionally.
This is how I feel.
